Friday, October 30, 2009
WHOOOOOO!!!!!!! YESTERDAY WAS MY LUCKY DAY!
First, my class won gold for interclass basketball game. the first game, i only had a little form, i shot in 4 balls. the score was 12-7, i think. second round, i totally didn't have any form. shot only 1 ball, and my team mates shot the rest. i think the score was about.... gahh i can't remember. they keep deducting scores cos of shouting vulgaraties or being too rough. and the second game, we played with the normal technical class. they can't play basketball, but they play dirty. in the previous match before they played with us, they played with an express class, and that class had only 1 good player. they kept bullying him. so when i played with them, i wanted to get revenge for that poor guy. when i was defending, i pushed one of the guys who played dirty with my shoulders. then he pushed back. but i was stronger, he couldn't do anything. hah! pathetic idiot. i agree with my sis. gangsters these days are only talk. they are small too. if 1 v 1 i sure own them, but if they come in gang i die liao. still, my reputation is more important. anyways, i won the pushing, and then he said 'oi, you want to push ar?' then i just sarcastically said 'oh, sorry'. we still won the match though, my class team too pro liao. haha.
finally the finals, we all thought that we would lose. but we won. and this time, i had my form already. whenever we got the ball, my team mate would just pass it to me and then i chiong and lay up, or shoot from a near distance. i was the top scorer of the game! wahaha.
But after everything, my team mate told me to be careful after school, as some students might come after me. and it wasn't the right time! i was going to get my report card soon after. i can't get into a fight now.. so i called my brother to come pick me up after school. although in the end no one came, lol. the worst thing was that after my friends, yea, friends, i finally made some. after my friends told me to be careful, i saw one of the opponents from the second match pointing at me to some other students. oh ya, i forgot to mention, that guy who pointed at me, wanted to play rough. cos i was the point guard of the team, i was supposed to start the ball. and every time i did, i just passed the ball, then my team mates would shoot it in or something. so he got pissed off and wanted to come after me. okay lor. come la. so i just check with him, but he threw the ball dam hard at me. i just acted like a newbie and dodged the ball. my pass was still faster than his big-sized body. so he couldn't do anything in the end. hah! pathetic, yet again. don't think you guys can do anything with your screwed up mind and attitude.
Finally~ time for report card! guess what? I GOT 5TH IN CLASS!!! YEA! and this afternoon, my mum went to see my teacher. and he said that i was THE TOP 10 IN THE WHOLE LEVEL!!! WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!~ and i went to appeal to TKSS. they said that a lot of people enlisted too. so by the 6th of november, they would notify me if i got short-listed or not. if i did, then i have to go for an entrance test. i dont mind, really. and when i filled up the form for appealing, i saw a part that asked me what level i would be when i got into the school. it said 'Sec 2 / 3' that means if i miss the chance for this year, i would still have another chance next year! i'd just have to work even harder.
If i really can't get into TKSS for sec 2, its okay. i just made friends. and if i get into trouble, the only thing im scared of is my reputation. other than that, im not scared at all. i have my 2 brothers, 1 of which is from army, who has a lot of ex-dam zai gangsters. another of which has a lot of friends too, none who all quite big in size. my uncle was an ex-gangster too. so im not scared at all. if it comes to the worst to the worst situation, i'll call all of them. although i don't like resulting into violence, its what they want. i only do this to protect myself.
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Everyone is saying that i think too much about the future. well, not that i can help it. like i said in the previous post, im the kind of person who wants to be one of the best in the world in what i do. so i have to start researching now, as im not a genius. i would continue to research even if i was a genius though, being a genius only makes things easier to accomplish, but there is always an alternative method.
I'm really afraid that my ambition will change again. well, all my ambitions are science-related anyway. haha. although concentrating on math and science would be the right thing to do now, i won't be happy, not like this. my thirst for knowledge will haunt me, and i will do researches.
I have to succeed, not only for myself, but also for my family.
And my mum got hospitalised. i really really miss her. when i called her, she didn't pick up the phone. and it went to her voicemail. after i heard her voice, i immediately broke into tears. even though she always scolds me, even though she always nags at me, even though she has a hot temper, i know that she loves me, and i love her too.
Friday, October 23, 2009
I am really very very confused. i'm considering whether to be a physicist or a doctor in the future. my sis said that i'm still young, and that i need not think so much about the future yet. but i know what kind of person i am. i will not work hard unless i have a goal. take for example PSLE. i didn't really have a goal of what i want to be in the future or where i want to go into for secondary school. but this year, because i wanted to be a physicist, i worked extremely hard so that i can transfer schools to get better education. and even after my exams, i did not relax, but listened to online lectures instead.
After 4 lessons of lectures, i got bored of physics. i don't understand why. i just didn't have the determination that i had before. i don't want to admit this, but i think i lost my interest of physics.
At this point of time, my brother was reading a manga called 'Team Medical Dragon'. as you can see from the title of the manga, it is about medical stuff. and when i saw my friend victor (met through maple a few years back, he's now studying in RJC to be a doctor in the future), i thought that i might as well just introduce to him the manga, since he wants to be a surgeon in the future at japan. but he told me that he doesn't really like manga and that he prefers drama. so i searched the internet to see if there is a drama show for this manga. and true enough, there was. i tried watching it too, and my interest is now about surgery. heart surgery, to be exact.
I fear, that if i don't start reading for extra knowledge now, i would not be able to shine brighter than others in the future. i am the kind of person who wants to be good at whatever i do, and be widely known around the world. i also hope that my name will be passed down from generation to generation. people would look up to me, and children would take me as their role model.
So i need to get my mind straight, to know what i really want to be in the future, and start working towards that goal.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Okay! i got my SA2 results already. its not bad, i guess. just that geography pulled me down, a lot.
English : 74/100 (argh! 1 more mark to A1!)
Chinese : 68.4/100 (whooo B3!!!)
Mathematics : 87/100 (careless mistakes, yet again)
Science : 84.5/100 (1m cos of handwriting, 1.5m cos of units, 2m cos i didn't phrase the ans properly)
Geography : 59/100 (the only difficult paper, and it was freaking difficult)
Literature : 71/100 (i actually got A2 for literature!)
History : 81/100 (sweet~)
Home Economics : 74/100 (wow? 1 more mark to A1 too! T.T)
Art : 66/100 (teacher said that she was very strict. i would get A1 if a normal teacher marks it ....)
Average : 73.8/100
Thats only for SA2. not the final marks.
Sunday, October 11, 2009
I think you took the life and death post of mine wrongly. okay fine, life does suck. but not every time. there will be times when you will be happy. like i have said yesterday, i think that you have only experienced the cons of life. the grass on the other side will always be greener. you should let go of the past, and live the present. i support your transferring of schools, if that helps you. some day, some one will truly be there for you. stop thinking of suicidal, and plan your future. life is not just full of suffering. i'll take my sister as an example. she is now in australia, and she has been there for months already, with her bf, just enjoying life. doing anything she wants everyday. and she even put her pm in msn as 'loving life'.
I'm willing to be here for you, and help you through your whole life. i know that i have a screwed up heart. i can barely kill an ant. i'll just flick it away instead of squashing it. and i'll close my eyes while flicking it. i can't bear to see something or someone suffering. please believe me. life is much better than you think. you need not tens or hundreds of friends which you know you can't trust. if you can't trust them, then they are not your friends. so, like what you have said yesterday, you don't trust anyone. hence, you don't have any friends now. that's why i'm asking you to open your heart once again, and start making friends again, maybe from next year after you transfer schools. but right now, you can have friends. tj can be your friend, and i can too. i don't know you too well to know all your 'friends' and to know who you can trust.
I know that i'm not in any position to say any of these, but i simply just want to help, because i care. i would really appreciate if you think about what i have said. and, don't forget to SMILE! :D
Friday, October 9, 2009
Depressed. just came back from math paper 1. i couldn't even see through the pattern of one of the questions. tell me, if i can't even see through the pattern of a mere 2 marks question, how can i be one of the greatest physicists in the world? i'll just be an average guy, with an average mind. never able to become a great physicist. only to be hidden in the shadows of earth, never able to shine in the light. just thinking of theories which have already been discovered, and never discover.
Forget it, i'll just eat my lunch and sleep, like an average guy.
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Hahaha... i almost got knocked by a car today. i was trying to walk home with my eyes closed and when i opened my eyes, a car was reversing right beside me. but i still wanna learn to walk home with my eyes closed ^^.
Yes... i'm in love... with the pictures of physics. its just so cool! i can't make a decision to put which one as my msn display pictures. here are some examples :
And these are just examples. there are so many nice pictures of physics!!! ahhhhh.........Monday, October 5, 2009
I think i made a discovery about physics this morning. i'm not sure if people already found out about it but i know that at least i have. and if really nobody discovered this before me, don't you go around saying that you discovered it okay! i'm just sharing it with everyone so that i can know if you guys know if its already discovered. okay. i think, that when you dream, your brain will automatically input things that have never happened to you, but make it seemed like it has happened before. i also experienced some weird thing for months. when i'm in bed, i would feel like im falling off a cliff or something. you know the feeling when you're going down on a roller coaster? i often feel it, and wake up right away. i dunno what that is, but my discovery is only the first matter, the one about inputting extra stuff into your memory. i also read about something, it said that you can actually repeat your dreams. and that is true. i have done it a lot of times. it can be trained too.
okay. lets say you're dreaming of wonderland, and something wakes you up. but you want to continue your dream. so, what do you do? you can actually think of wonderland and sleep. sure enough, you will be back in wonderland, and the story would continue from there.
weird isn't it? the way our minds work. and that is, without a doubt, one of the parts of physics.
Friday, October 2, 2009
That's right! i went to F1 on saturday. we went early to watch the porche race and my brother brought a professional's camera (not that he wanted to). we started taking photos of the porche race and i shit you not, that camera could not take any of the pictures but my phone could, haha. then we slacked till the third qualifying round of the F1 race. my bro and i didn't want to use ear plugs at first but when we went into the stadium, we immediately started to regret. the cars were sooooooo loud. you can feel your eardrums vibrate and have a sharp pain. so we left to buy earplugs. but just about when we were going to buy the earplugs, we were reminded of our earpiece. so we wore the earpiece and entered the stadium. although it is not as good as earplugs, it prevents the vibrating and the sharp pain. and after that, we slacked again. and lemme tell you, the food and souvenirs there is DAMN expensive. one plate of chicken rice costs $8. a shirt costs $100+ and a pair of shoes costs $282. then it was time for the qualifying roud. again, vroom here vroom there, finish.
And i was studying really hard for chinese today. i swear i did not watch anime nor play dragonica. and i nailed zao ju. but the 2 cloze passages were the problem. it was the killer. and i don't really have anything else to say other than that.
Went back to mbs today for mooncake festival. met clement, yume-chan, boon khong, renjie and xavier. we didn't really celebrate the mooncake festival la. we just walked around the blocks of flats and slacked. ate at a coffee shop, only clement and boon khong ate, the others drank, while i didn't order anything at all lol. wasn't hungry nor thirsty. then we went to the playground, play play a bit, boon khong and renjie actually kissed each other. eew? anyways, dont wanna talk about that. clement went home, xavier too. and the rest of us walked to a place with seats and there are workers putting up lights for some event and people practising tae kwon doe (however you spell it lol). just slacked there and renjie wanted yume-chan to do some sick things for him. lol. then boon khong and renjie left, and i couldn't just leave yume-chan alone, so i accompanied her, talk talk till her mum came, then went home.
haiz. gtg le. got tuition tomorrow morning.
Oh ya.. if anyone sees the book "Einstein and Oppenheimer : The Meaning of Genius" please let me know where to buy it. thanks.
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